
Korkki

Art is subjective, and I love that about it. I have always said that I love to see the hand of the artist in the work. Some people see these features as flaws. I see them as necessary, or at least desirable. I dislike it when potters smooth everything out so you can hardly tell whether it was made by a machine. I’m not impressed if I can’t tell whether it’s a painting or a photograph. Or when people use a filter to take every bit of life and character out of their selfie.
I do like my cups and bowls to be as close to round as I can get them, but you’re going to see an impression of me in there somewhere. This bit of mud spun between my fingers. That’s how it got here.
I’ve said it many times, in many different ways. I love old pottery. I love simple, functional forms. I don’t intentionally make dimples and indentations, but sometimes I allow them to be there. I like haphazard daubs of glaze. In this, I was inspired by early New England pottery. I bring my version of it in colors and my own human hand. The glaze sometimes looks a bit like my acrylic paintings.
Everyone gets to like what they like. A friend held one of my pots and announced that she only likes smooth surfaces. That was the end of that conversation. I like textures, and I like smooth gloss.
I like what I like, and if you like what I make, here it is. I’ll change the way I do things when it feels right to me. Or I’ll notice it after the fact. It changes all the time anyway, but hopefully it always comes from an authentic place in me. I always want to improve, but that success may be very different from your ideal. It’s not your voice I am expressing. It won’t be the way you would do it.
I’m going to take part in a sale soon. If anything, I should be worried about not selling my pieces, but I’d rather keep them all! My cupboards are overflowing, and I keep making more.
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from Wikipedia: Characteristics of wabi-sabi aesthetics and principles include asymmetry, roughness, simplicity, economy, austerity, modesty, intimacy, and the appreciation of both natural objects and the forces of nature
Many years ago when I thought I knew everything, I told a therapist it was too late to grieve things from my childhood. The whole notion seemed silly to me. Well. Now I see that there is no past. No future. Just this eternal now. My backpack gets heavy, and it’s not too late to grieve. I can still sit with it and then let it walk on its own now. Those old traumas are not my enemies. They’re just parts of me. They don’t go away. Maybe my understanding of them changes.
A shadow falls and then the light comes back.
I think trauma is disappointment. I thought I wanted this or that, or to go here or there. They were never meant to be. I know this because they didn’t happen.
If there was a past, I can see how it results from this now. I just have to remember to present my response in the form of a question.