I never know what is going to inspire me. I go about my life doing all the things people do, and I do various creative things, as I have always done. I don’t need to try to be inspired. It’s counter productive for me to look for the next big idea. That turns the wonder of discovery into work, and tends to result in something that feels contrived.

So like I said, I go about my life, and notice things that connect me to something deep inside me already. One thing leads to another. One significant observation or realization opens the door to something connected to it.

When my mother died, I became interested in my ancestry. I looked at old photos of my bygone relatives and I wanted to know more. I wanted to know them.

The generation before mine leads me to their parents, and they take me back to their parents. At each level, I unlock new stories about them, and about me.

With each level I unlock, the crowd doubles, and I begin to see, as never before, how we are all related.

I’m interested in pottery from early New England and paintings from mid 20th century Finland. My ancestors find their way into my writing, my pottery, into my drawings and my brother’s drawings. Rather than try to copy 18th century red ware jugs and pitchers, I admire them and add them to my visual lexicon. The things I care about are bound to influence what comes out of me. I love simple pottery forms. Nothing too ornate or perfect.

I don’t really feel like I choose anything. I don’t remember choosing acrylic paint, except that it dries faster than oils, doesn’t require so many ingredients, and is easier to clean up. As some point, I switched from charcoal and pencil to oil pastel and watercolor, but I don’t remember the choice. I dabble in all of them. For now, I’m working mostly in acrylic paint and clay.

Creative work comes pretty easily, because I try to avoid expectations and focus on enjoying the process. I think a lot while I’m painting, but not about the technical aspects of painting. I’m thinking of the story, like I do with my ancestors, who bubble up from deep in my DNA.

It’s a wonderful feeling to let my mind and my body be active. It’s a private land of dreams. No one is looking over my shoulder telling me what I should be doing rather than doing what I love.

When my life is over, I want to be remembered for being authentic. I don’t want to be like anyone else.

I want to follow the rules that make sense to me artistically, even if it means I use the medium differently than anyone else.